Goodbye 2010

     So, this is my last official blog for 2010!! :) I am excited for 2011 because a lot of things are happening this year! :) Well, excited and nervous!!! First of all I have the last term of my high school career, Grad photos, prom, graduation, Gradfest :) :) which will be awesomely awesome :), last summer at home I think haha not sure. That one is not set in stone yet haha, college, moving away from my parents, friends and family, this will be my first time moving anywhere! I have lived in the same trailers since I was born....well okay I finally made the switch to the other side a few years back but thats as much as I have moved! Kind of sad but it was nice, just don't tell my parents that haha I am sure I am going to miss my family and friends but this is going to be very good for me. Not only will I gain an education into something that interests me but I also gain new experiences and memories and hopefully friends :) I plan to be friendly and myself :) But i better go cause its almost 12!!! haha HAPPY NEW YEARS!!!!! may 2011 be the start of something new!!!

Christmas Holiday :)

               Let me start off by saying Merry Christmas and a happy new year to everyone :) <3 I am very pleased that we all have made it another year :) although some good ones have moved on to another place. We shall remember them in our hearts and minds till the day we die. "You won't have me long cause Only the good die young" is what a young man that passed away recently said to his parents a few months before he got into a tragic car crash deceasing himself and an older lady. Both known, loved and now missed greatly by so many people. I don't know how he predicted this but in a small manner he had. I wish greatly that he had been wrong and that he would not have passed on. Being left behind when people move on is really a test of your soul, of your personality, of your inner strength, of your will to live. It is hard and leaves an everlasting impression on your heart and soul. No one would wish it even on their worst enemy. Well, enough sad and tragic topics.

It's only when we truly know and understand that we have a limited time on earth -- and that we have no way of knowing when our time is up . that we will begin to live each day to the fullest, as if it was the only one we had.
                                                                   -Elisabeth Kubler-Ross


A man's dying is more the survivors' affair than his own.
                                                                    - Thomas Mann


I believe that imagination is stronger than knowledge -- myth is more potent than history -- dreams are more powerful than facts -- hope always triumphs over experience -- laughter is the cure for grief -- love is stronger than death.
                                                                    - Robert Fulghum


And now the end is near
And so I face the final curtain,
My friends, I'll say it clear,
I'll state my case of which I'm certain.
I've lived a life that's full, I've travelled each and evr'y highway
And more, much more than this, I did it my way.
                                                                                                  -Paul Anka


     Let's move on to happier thoughts. Just recently I went and visited some family I have that are chosen not born family for Christmas. We traveled down there on Christmas Eve and made our way home on Boxing Day. I very much enjoyed the time I had with them, although I wished it could have been for a extended period of time. For me, people that you chose to be your family are often closer to you than your real family. Not always, but in some cases it's true. We all choose people who fit into our well structured lives where as family is not a choice. We are all born with our families and therefore cannot change that fact for the rest of eternity. Some would love to be able to change it and for others the thought would not even come up. Everyone has a different view and relationship with their siblings, parents, cousins, etc. I had an extremely good relationship with my Grandfather till my Grandmother passed away 6 years ago come April. After that he morned her and then the next year in May got remarried to a new lady with the same name as my Grandmother. At first things were good. Everyone was happy. Then a slight shift and everything was opened and changed. Now 5 years later, I don't get any phone calls from my Grandfather. I only see him about once a year and mostly that was because I needed a place to stay in town for my Badminton. I know that is bad but at least I somewhat made the effort to include him in my life. Don't get my wrong I love my grandfather but it is hard to make the effort to see a person who won't even phone you and wish you a Happy Birthday or a Merry Christmas. We used to have Christmas with them every year now we don't. I miss seeing and talking to him and my real grandmother but I am afraid it may be to late to change that now. Things have been said that cannot be unsaid and things have been done that now cannot be undone. Life really isn't all that forgiving when you want to take something back. We are supposed to take note of what we did and how we can prevent it next time. It's called learning from your mistakes.
 
Mistakes are a part of being human. Appreciate your mistakes for what they are: precious life lessons that can only be learned the hard way. Unless it's a fatal mistake, which, at least, others can learn from    
                                                         - Al Franken


Instruction does not prevent wasted time or mistakes; and mistakes themselves are often the best teachers of all.     
                                                 - James Anthony Froude


There are no mistakes, save one: the failure to learn from a mistake.   
                                                                   - Robert Fripp


          I am very excited for the new year to come :) I think that 2011 is going to be the real start of my life. I get to graduate from High School and go to College, which means move out of the house for the first time. I am more excited than I am nervous for College but the nervousness is defiantly still there. I am going to so far from home! But I also know a few people down there now so that makes me feel a little better. I plan to keep writing these to keep you wonderful people in the know ;) I am sure I will have lots to talk about :) The one thing that makes me the most nervous I think is the fact of my roommate. What if I don't like her?? Then I would have to stay stuck in a very small room with her for a whole year! :( But it could turn out that I love my roommate and we could become the best of friends and everything would be awesome. There is no for sure answer or guess to which of the two I will get! I really hope its the last one! 


            But it is now officially 1:37 am. I really should get to sleep because I am going to be looking at scholarships and dorm registration tomorrow :) Night Everyone well it won`t be night when you read this so Good Day :) haha


 ASHLEY

High School :|

So today there was a group of "cool" guys that have a booklet of numbers and were rating girls with them. One said Just Kidding you are a b**** and they even had a zero! How rude! I can see just having a ten in memory of Kyle and what not but a zero?? really?? Why?? I just don't understand the reasoning to it! Why would someone want to upset people?? Girls worry enough about what guys think without having to have it shouted at them in the hallways. Sure its all good if the guys like you but what about those people that just aren't the guy's types?? And who are the guys to judge who is good looking in such a public manner?? Talk about an embarrassment if you aren't their type! I really dislike people like that!!! If they just gave everyone a ten then it would be pointless but it always would be nice!!!! Everyone has enough stress already they don't need anything added to it!!!! Stupid boys who think they are so cool and on top of the world! But anyways haha I am really excited for badminton tonight :) It shall be a really good time :) I invited some guys that I know and that should be fun :) and a couple of my other awesome friends are going to be there :) Wooot!!!! :) I enjoy exercise most of the time :) I also am gunna go for a run tonight too with Megan and Allison :) yay!!!! extra work out!! :) One of these days it will show!! haha maybe lol if I stop eating all the ice cream!!! haha I am looking forward to giving out my Christmas gifts this week :) I already got to see the surprised face of three people :) I enjoy giving gifts!!! :) I would much prefer to give a gift then get a gift! Especially when I make it :) This year I made two really cool candy gifts :) and I am making one of my besties this awesome gift that I can't say what it is because I have not given it to her yet! and my other friends gets this really cool handmade thing :) and yet another friend gets another one :) haha they all take time though! :( haha but I enjoy it most of the time!!! haha But school is ending I will talk to you all later! bies
ASHLEY UTZ

College is coming up very very soon :) Last night I got to talk with two girls that went to the college I am planning to go to and they were telling me all about the dorms and things to bring and avoid :) lol I am so excited to be moving out soon :) only like 9 months till I start college :) lol just under a year!!! :) That gives me enough time to think more about it and get ready to leave home! My mom is not happy that I am going so far away but I really want to go to the college I picked out :) and it is my decision not hers so it really doesn't matter what she thinks at all cause I am going to pay for it all myself :) Without any loans :) yay!!! :) haha its about an 11 hour drive haha but I better go lol talk to you all later :)

The Show Must Go On

So, I was lucky enough to receive the position of Stage Manager in my high school production of Into The Woods! I was also stupid enough to take the job haha So far it has been alright but I mostly just get to sit on this very uncomfortable stool for about 2 and a half hours and call lighting cues. It's really not as fun as I made it sound. You also have to add in the fact that there are always people standing behind you and talking and asking you questions and I can't forget to mention all the people bumping into you. It is kind of cool to be calling the lights but its really not that big of a deal when you really think about it. Although, people seem to like to thank me even though they have no idea what I actually do. I find that humorous.

ASHLEY

Down, Down and Farther Down

Hi everyone,
    Today has been a continuous flow of badness! With the odd happy moment. The bad started when I realized that I did have to get up and actually go to school today! :( I am so tired and worn out and I just want to sleep for 3 days straight!!!! Then we (my friend and I) were kind of late getting out of the house so that made me a little worried since I had stuff I had to do once we got to school! and then we made it to school with time to spare but then I got called down to go work on the program for this year's school play that needed to be done this morning!!! and then I worked on that for most of first class and then I sat and talked with some awesome stage craft people which was a nice change from the way my morning had been going :) and then came PE. We started off with handball with only two teams which sucks! Four corner is way better! and my team was really not that good!!! so that was bad then we switched to soccer which blew more!!! During the switch I was waiting to get a drink when I saw this dodgeball that was covered in writing to Kyle. He passed away recently and was loved by so so many!!! Everyone signed it and said things to him. Reading it was not a smart idea the way my day was going! I got really sad and in the end ended up crying! Talia and Emily came and talked to me and made me laugh a bit! Then came along math! Since I am in theater and I am eating, sleeping, breathing it I did not have time to study for my math test that just happened to be today!!! So there were about 7 questions that I did not even have any clue how to do!!! 3 of the 7 were important worth more then the rest questions!! I will be surprised if I did not fail it!!  I was tired, and upset and I had not studied so that will be a terrible test!!! Oh I forgot to add that when I was upset in PE I had texted this guy who said he would be there for me whenever I needed him that I needed a hug and how much I missed our friend! and I didn't get a reply for some time.. When he finally replied all it said was "sorry I didn't get your text until now. How are you?" and when I said I am dealing meaning to me not well I did not get a text back! I eventually just said never mind just forget that I texted you. The reason why this made me so upset was because he had said he would be there if I ever needed him and when I did need him he wasn't there! All I asked for was a simple hug! It was not like I asked him to go around the world for me! It was a hug! Lunch time was bad because I was sad and my friend was in a really good mood so we kind of clashed! I didn't want to be happy and so I wasn't! I am better now but I am still a bit sad when I think about that text conversation or lack there of! Another friend of mine really helped me out! :) I can always count on him and really don't know what I would do if he wasn't there anymore!!!! He is so nice and always there and just funny and makes me smile :) I am excited to move away to college!!!!! That way I can know who my true friends are!!!! I know that he will be one of them! :) But class is really coming to an end so I should go! :( I will talk to you later! I have to update you all on my theater experience!!! lol

ASHLEY

A changing of times

I have figured out that as slow as it feels to grow up we do truly grow up fast. Here I am going to be graduating in June, accepted to College, moving out in September, and yeah. Everything is happening so fast and it scares the crap out of me! I want to still be a little kid playing in the sand box and color with crayons!!! The biggest issue then was the fact that I had to share my crayons! Why can't the rest of life be that simple?? They say ignorance is bliss and I am starting to believe them! If we didn't have to pay attention to everything bad around us our lives would be so joyful and happy all the time. I am not saying that I think life sucks or anything like that! :) I love life even with its bad moments....I guess without down moments the ups wouldn't seem as good. Without downs would we be truly happy?? Hmmmm...thought provoking....Anyways... I am moving into town to my friends place for a little over two weeks! I am pumped but yet it is going to be weird because one I am not going to be going home at all and two I have never lived in town so that will be weird too. I am sure we are going to have some fun but I think we will be too busy to have like an extreme amount of fun lol Which is kind of sad but I am also looking forward to moving into the theater and getting everything going with the show :) I cannot believe that the first show is about 8 days till we start performances!! Yikes!!! haha I am excited and very nervous!!! I don't really know what I am expected to do as stage manager to tell you the truth lol I think I am supposed to know when people come on and where they come on from and like the lighting and sound and yeah I am so going to wreck this show!! :( haha oh well at least I will learn some new things :) Which is awesome cause I like to expand my horizons!! :) Makes me feel good about myself :) lol Tomorrow I am going to be painting so much! lol I think I will even do it TSP and during my lunch! :( which will suck but we need to get it done so we can start on the next house and get the trees done by Saturday!!! I am so nervous!!!!!!!!! ahhhhhhh lol what happens if we don't get it done or I wreck it or something stupid happens and I ruin the whole show!!! :( ahhhhhhhhhh I am freaking out a little right now! So much is going on right now it is over whelming....I hate this lol but love it at the same time! Being busy makes me feel good and useful :) I hate just sitting around doing nothing lol of course if I was always busy I would't be able to write this blog :( lol so it is sort of a good thing that I have some free time lol sort of....haha But I need to finish packing and I have math homework to do and I have to talk to my mother and yeah lol busy busy :) Night y'all!!!

ASHLEY

Life Is Short!!! :(

        Today was not a very good day at all. At the beginning of the day I had a brother that wasn't actually my brother just a friend that I have grown up with and now I don't. He got into a crash this morning and later passed away. I already miss him dearly!!!! I wish I could go back in time and change it! He was such an amazing young man! I can't believe I wasted all that time! He was so young!!! Only 17....supposed to graduate this year! He will be missed strongly and by many!!! Bad things happen to amazing people! :( There are so many things I wish I could change...I wish I hung out with him more...I wish I had taken the time to talk to him...I wish I hadn't been so rude to him at times...I wish...But wishing won't bring him back it will only make me unhappy....He wouldn't want us to be unhappy he would want us to party hard and enjoy life! He always had a joke or some funny comment to say :) This incident reminds me of the people I have lost in my life....I miss you Grandma, I miss you Auntie, I miss you Kyle, I miss you Mrs.G, I miss you Doris, I miss you Nana, I miss you Papa, too many people for having only been around for 17 years! I think that people should stop dieing around me!!!! R.I.P <3 I will never forget any of you for as long as I live!!!! You all made a difference in my life and will be forever missed!!!!! :( <3 <3 I still feel like today is a nightmare and I am going to wake up and you are going to be alive and everything will be okay...but I know it won't! Life isn't that nice...it has its downs and they suck but we have to keep looking forward....we have to stay strong! As much as it hurts we have to move on....

Oh My haha

That is what I have been saying all day!!! lol I woke up mad at school but then I cheered up a little! :) then I got tired again :( which was really lame cause we danced in Stage Craft today and that would have been a blast had I been in  good mood :) and then PE started off really lame! and then got good :) :] which was nice :) my team barely lost this time and I made the teams but they didn't work out the way I wanted them too! :( so that was a disappointment haha oh well turned out not so bad lol hopefully the teams get worked out a little better tomorrow lol I highly doubt it though lol so then Math was kind of boring and then got better when Julia and I started hitting each other and laughing so hard! lol Lunch was good cause I hung out with one of my best friends :) that I hardly hang out with :) and we talked and laughed and went to timmies..then thinking that we were late she ran into her class and realized that her class wasn't even in there yet! It was so funny!!! :) Now Investment and Money Management is boring but I spilled my hot chocolate and typed in the wrong password twice until Kyle told me that I was using the wrong password! lol It has been an interesting day lol lots of ups and downs!!! :) I enjoy it lol keeps me on my toes actually :} its nice lol I get to not ride the bus today after school :) and go to a friends house so that will be a blast and a half :) cause we are so random when we get together :) lol I totally love it!!!! <3 We haven't really gotten the chance to hang out much lately but we are trying!!! :) I have been friends with her for as long as I can remember lol we have had our fights that's for sure but its not the fights that matter it's the time we actually hang out and the wonderful memories we have together :) haha gag corny!!! Lol :) But I better go work :) Talk to you all later :)

ASHLEY

Good Morning!!! :) I think this may be the earliest that I have ever blogged lol but this one will be short because the space bar on this computer kind of sucks and doesn't press down half the time so I can see myself giving up on this whole thing and just studying like I am supposed to! lol So my first Grade 12 math midterm is today :( yikes!!!! I am so not looking forward to it at all!!! :( I really do need a good mark but I just can't seem to make myself study!!! and its not like I am lucky enough to have a spare before my math class!!! :( I am excited for floor hockey though!!!:) I better win today!!! haha although I think I am the one that brings down my team!!! I just enjoy the sport so my teacher thinks I am better then I am! :) It has it's good points and bad points! At least I get to play against him all the time! Which is nice because he is a good player! I like to play against people who are good!!! because that makes me try harder!!! And makes me feel better when I actually get it away from someone that is good lol Math sucks so much!!! :) I think that I really should be studying right now! :( I must say this again! Math sucks!!! So, instead of studying I am hanging out with PK and Lifesaver and Shrimp

Gotta Love Being A Teenager!

Hey all my awesome readers and anyone who randomly came upon this blog :) I am enjoying life at the moment :) I just got a random call from a few friends of mine while in class :) Since I am done all my work I decided to take it. It was very funny and made me laugh! :) Gotta love friends :) lol Yes, I know that I shouldn't have taken a phone call while in class but the teacher was not in the room nor was he going to tell us anything important for the rest of class. As I said before I was done all my work so I didn't see the harm in it! lol :) Everyone now and then you got to live on the edge and break a few rules or at least bend the rules a bit! Or life may become boring, like a trap and just plain old not any fun!!!! Another thing that has gotten me happy is that I got a new book!!! :) It is the third one in a series!!! and the other two were really good!!! I would suggest you all to read The hunger Games, Catching Fire and Mockingjay!!!! the first two are so so good!!!! I am going to read all the way home today haha :) Yay!!! :) :) A thing that is not so happy and good in my life right now is my Midterm for Math is tomorrow :( so instead of reading my book when I get home I am going have to study and study and guess what?!?!?! study some more! :( That is going to be lame but it will be worth it if I can get a really good mark :) I am hoping for at least a B!!! :) So that I can boost my mark up to at least a B!!! :) :) :) :] :] :] Because if I don't then I don't get money from the school at the end of the year! :( which would be so lame!!! especially with college just around the corner!! :( I am excited but yet kind of scared to face college!!! Especially since the one I am looking at is about 8 hours away I think! :( oh well it should be a blast!!! :)

Right at this moment I am kind of bored....after the phone call excitement this class is almost unbearable!!! I need to go hang out with friends or something :) lol Maybe I won't read on this bus after all haha but class is ending so talk to you later

ASHLEY

Change

Hi, so recently I have noticed that I have sort of changed. I can't really place my finger on how I have changed or when it happened but I know that I am a bit different now then I was last school year. A lot went down this summer that had a long lasting effect on me. This includes me breaking up with my boyfriend that I had for a year and three weeks, some friendships were lost, some were created, I re-realized that life is super short, my brother hit a moose which may not seem like such a life altering thing for me but it was, and just a lot of new things occurred to me over the summer. The other day I asked one of my amazing best friends if she had noticed a change in me. She took her time answering and told me that not really. Although, as always with her, she had a big long winded explanation behind it. She pointed out some good facts and made things clearer for me. I may have changed a tiny bit but that's because where I noticed the change I was getting more comfortable. I had accepted the way things were and I adapted to fit in. I had found that I had become okay with myself in that situation unlike I had before. May I add that this slight change took years! I never thought that I didn't enjoy that situation just because I wasn't warmed up to the people in it. I had felt like an outcast and now I somewhat, I wouldn't say completely, fit in. Last night showed me that I make my own destiny. I am who I am and anyone that has an issue with that can either tell me or just leave. Not everyone is going to get along and be all "let's hold hands and sing". We all need a little bit of uncomfortable to show us that we will be alright.

I am happy to be able to say that although that situation used to have me freaked out to the nines and yet so excited now it pretty much just makes me excited! :) I still do get the odd 'should I be here' and 'what am I doing here' thoughts but they get over run by 'oh my gosh! this is awesome' and 'I need to do this more often' and don't forget 'I am so happy that I stuck it out and kept coming!' I find that yes maybe things are hard in the beginning but as time goes by and you get more comfortable you can find that you may just surprise yourself. Things may just become easier and more fun and enjoyable. Another one of my awesome friends told me one time "It takes 20 days (or attempts) to make it stick." I believe that she is very right. You can't expect yourself to get everything on the first try. If you expect that then you should prepare yourself to be disappointed every once in a while. Well I better go study for math.

                                                      HAPPY HALLOWEEN EVERYONE!!!

ASHLEY

The Supposedly 'Nice' Fluffy White Snow Has Arrived :(

One of the worst parts of living where I do is the winters! We get really long and rather chilly winters! :( That's all good if you love snowboarding or skiing or snow blading but still like come on!!! Summer should be WAY longer than winter is!!!! I came up with a brilliant idea today! The snow can stay on the ski hills but be gone everywhere else! :) See I told you it was a brilliant idea! haha if only it were that simple! Oh well....I must say I do not hate winter or snow I just prefer more summer! I love to snow blade! and hockey is awesome too! but would I rather be swimming in a lake on a nice hot day or freezing my but off outside in the snow?? Defiantly the swimming in a lake one!! :) As much as I dislike the snow I decided to take some pictures of it today! haha funny eh?? Well here they are! You are the first ones other then myself to see them :) Although, I always show my pictures so this is really not a big deal! haha

Something that warms even the coldest places :)

Fire is what warms even the coldest places :) Oh and smiles :) haha I am very easily entertained by fire... I don't really know why. I only know that I am not the only one who likes to play with fire :) Fireworks are also "the bomb" haha

Watching fireworks is always a fun evening plan :) For me fireworks represent celebration. The only time we usually buy fireworks is when we are celebrating something! :)

The Mountains Comes Home :]

Hello Dear Readers :)
   How are you today?? Good?? I sure hope so :) I am really good in case you were wondering, and if you weren't well I told you anyways lol So yesterday Butterfly and his girlfriend made it back to our place. If you don't know, which most of you won't, Butterfly is a guy that works up in the mountains and that is just his nickname. I don't want to use his real name because I just don't feel like it right now. They ended up staying the night! Dung Beetle, also not a real name, owns the mountain's well has claim to some of the land in the mountains. He made it back today. He had to figure out where to put the horses and get everything settled with them before he made it up here. He arrived at lunch time today which kind of excited me! I like Dung Beetle! haha Which sounds so messed up but it's true Haha. You see Dung Beetle is really nice and thoughtful and very fun to make fun of :) haha I quite enjoy it actually, the making fun of him part lol :) They are all having a good time talking and watching hockey :) :) And I am just sitting here watching it all unfold haha :) :] :} But I better go and get off my computer and actualy socialize haha :) Bies

ASHLEY

Sleep is IMPORTANT!

Hello my awesome readers and people that just happen to stumble upon my blog!
        Last night well early this morning, 4:30 am, I decided to get only one hour of sleep. This was not the smartest thing I have done! Sleep is really important! Without it I just crumble! Today has been full of ups and downs. One minute I will be hyper and over tired the next I am ready to just pass out asleep! I still have badminton to endure! Although, I do believe that, that will be more fun then it will be anything else! I missed last week so I am very excited to get playing again!! :) As I mentioned in my last entry, at least I think it was my last entry, I had gotten the chance to talk to my teacher. She is now checking my homework and assigning certain things each night for me. So far this has actually helped a little! I do what she tells me to and that's about it, but I learn what I need to without over doing it! I like the set up we have! :) I am excited now! haha My mood keeps changing today! it is so weird! and really funny!!! :) Class has about 20 minutes left :) So pumped up for after school :) Get to go to Meg's house and then play badminton!!! :) Woot WOOOOOOO I might even get Chinese food :) Yay me!!! :) I have started to read a book called "The Hunger Games". Everyone that has read it has said that it is good! It has romance and blood and gore :) The best kind of book :) I think I may read it right now :) haha I am excited! Yes, I know I am a nerd haha well I would prefer book nerd actually haha :) But I am going to go read now :) Bies!

ASHLEY

No worries :)

So, I don't have much to say at the moment. Today has been good and bad. Stage Craft went all right. I talked more to this girl that is in my class then I normally do so that was nice! :) In PE my class played soccer and well to put it nicely a baby could probably play better then I can, I am that bad. Seriously, I am that bad at soccer! I didn't score at all :( so stupid! haha and then I had math which really didn't go all that well either cause well it is math we are talking about here! :( Oh well, I did talk to my teacher and she said that she would check my homework everyday so now I have a reason to work on it! and finish it! :) YAY maybe that will help me! During my flex Chad and Megan and I decided to go to her house and grab her overnight stuff cause she is so coming over :) So pumped! :) We have to practice her lines and make posters but other then that it shall be a blast :) oh and we both have homework :( lol oh well we will still have a blast :) We may even take pictures :) fun! :) Right now I am in investment and money management and my teacher is talking away about current assets and current debts! haha talk about boring!!!! I strongly dislike this class! My teacher is really boring and he doesn't know how to teach I swear! But who am I to say anything, I have never tried teaching before. I am sure that I wouldn't be that great either haha I would be too nervous to stand in front of all those teenagers and have them listening to every single word I say! What if I messed up?? or said the wrong thing completely or what if I was having a bad day?? or if they didn't respect me?? That is the problem with my teacher I think. He is kind of a push over that tries at times to be serious and strong which just doesn't work. There are no tests in this class either which isn't a smart thing for a teacher cause then the students don't listen and pay attention enough in class....they can share work and just not pay attention at all when he talks. Just write the notes down or find the answers in the book and there ya go. That's all that's needed! But i better listen because we actually have an assignment to do lol BIES

ASHLEY

PHOTOS!!!!!!

Muahahahahaha I have finally gotten the time, and well finally thought about it when I actually had the chance to do it, to put pictures that I have actually taken onto this awesome blog of mine!! YAY me! haha :) I am excited now!!! :) lol

It took me a while to choose which photo I wanted to put up first. I decided on this one because I think it is somewhat unique! I love to take pictures :) but recently I haven't had the time plus I have hit a wall when it comes to inspiration! :( Oh well, I will enjoy just looking at my pictures and other peoples amazing pictures for a little while :)

My mother's garden is usually the subject of my photos. I love the close up flower pictures, so my computer is filled with those :) But I am kind of tired and I really don't feel like writing or adding more haha so I will talk to you all later :)

Peace out!

ASHLEY

Hey!! :)
   So today I found out that I think/talk about me, myself and I a lot :( This is not a good thing in my books, as it shouldn't be in any ones. I am going to have to work on that one. I will try to keep you updated on my progress, or maybe lack there of lol I am in a good mood though! Which is amazing :) and very nice! I love being in a good mood! :) So much more fun then being angry!!! :) Right now I am watching Kyle playing the hardest game ever haha I think that is even the name of it! It looks so hard!!! I know I couldn't do it!! haha thats why I am just watching haha He almost got the one level but he failed at the very last challenge!  haha :() poor poor kyle haha I am going to add some pictures that I found on Google and thought were cool! They all have the theme of love :) I don't know why I chose that haha An update on the Kyle thing: He has 55 deaths and is on...opps make that 59..... on level 10. That level is so so hard!!!! 64 now haha but I have to go :) Hope you enjoy the pictures!

Likes :)

I love black and white photos! :) They are so simple but they can capture the moment and emotions so well!!! The two photos above were found on Google and were not taken by me. I will need to add some photos of my own soon!

As much as I love black and white photos my eyes always notice the bright and unique ones the most. I love the photo above because of the way the colors go so well together. Plus its a close up photo, one of my favorite techniques. I did not take that picture either. Soon enough I will have some of my own up here! Maybe tonight I will get around to it! If you read this blog you should make a comment or something :) Tell me what you like and what you don't like. :) I got to go though! Bies


ASHLEY

Hey Out There To Any One Who Actually Reads Theses Things,
      Today is not a good day for me.... I don't know why but right at this moment I am not happy at all....kay I know why but I am choosing not to say it where everyone and anyone can read it! I like some things private, weird I know coming from someone that blogs about their life and opinions. Whatever, I am an odd girl! :) I like to think that my friends enjoy that about me. That I keep them on their toes and entertained at least a little bit. I do have my super weird moments when even I feel sorry for the people around me. I like to think that I am mature with a few immature moments instead of the other way around. When people guess my age they say usually 18 or 19 which makes me really happy because I like to be thought of as older. Most of the time I doubt it is because of just my looks. They may help in making me look older at times but I think most of the time it is the way I act and not the way I look. I will admit to my fair share immature moments but I am trying to limit that number as much as I can! People that are always immature really make me mad. That's all I am going to say about that.

Anywho, on to a new topic! Religion. Touchy subject for a lot of people I know, but I think it is a good thing to bring up. I am neither a Christian or a Atheist. I used to be a Christian and I was raised to be a Christian but I have chosen my own path and will stay on it. I have friends that are Christian and I have friends that are Atheist. I don't pick my friends based on what they know or believe. That is not an important thing to me, at least not right now it isn't. The only thing that really bugs me about Christianity is that there are people out there that are preaching at and telling other people that they will go to hell if they don't believe. That is wrong and rude and to my eyes not very Christian like. Jesus ate with the sinners. It is not the saved that need help, it is the sinners that do. Yes, it is good to surround yourself with people that believe the same as you but if you only have people that believe the same as you around you, then you aren't challenging yourself or helping anyone really. What if you could help someone but you don't ever get a chance to try because they aren't Christian?? You would waste a great opportunity and a thing that would be very "Christian". People should be able to believe what they want without getting teased, treated rudely or even ignored in some cases. Everyone thinks differently and that is a good thing, so why are so many people trying to get everyone else to think like them?? To believe in what they do?? To believe how they do?? Everyone is different!!! I cannot stress this enough! I may be young and I haven't seen that much of the world, although I would love to, but it's really not that hard to see how people act. We are all so selfish! So, I need to correct myself, most people are so selfish! Me included! I think about myself first, then others! This is a habit that I want to change! We would all be better off if we thought of others first! Now don't get me wrong, I know there are people out there doing that right now, but we need more to make a bigger difference! I want to say Thank- You to everyone out there trying to make a difference! You rock!!! :) I wish I could be like you! :) well not quite like you but you know what I mean lol :)

I really enjoy writing this blog. It helps me to De-stress and I don't know get my feelings out haha :) But class is coming to an end again..... :)

PS: I learned that to get into some Colleges for the course I want to I have to get at least a C in Math Principals 12 :( So lame!!!! :(

ASHLEY

The Small Things In Life

Hello my dear sweet readers!
    Most of the blogs I have written have been typed in complete boredom! I have this class called Investment and Money Management and it is so boring! I have some work to do but in the last week I have done about two full days of work to about three days of facebooking and blogging... I guess I could do some math, but I need help with a lot of it so it is kind of pointless...plus since my mark is so slow I have enlisted the help of a friend to help boost my mark up! I want to get an A but it is easier said then done! Math Principal 12 is not easy at all! I am glad that I have a friend that has already finished this course and that actually got a really good mark in it or else I don't know what I would do. School has come quite easy to me these last few years, which isn't good because when things get hard I get mad and frustrated and think that I should just get it but I don't. Although when I do finally get it, it feels so good! Anyways, enough about my math troubles. Today has been good :) I read on my first bus, thought on my second and talked to friends on my third! It was a nice combination :) Plus I don't have to ride the bus home because my amazing brother and I are going on a little road trip :) I am pumped!!!!! I would say where we are going but you never know who will read this! haha So I have to keep things kind of secret, although, being secret is one thing I am really bad about when it comes to my own life. I am a open book, which has its pros and cons! That way people get to know me really easily but it also means that people may know more then they should about me... I don't know I like to be an open book cause that means I can trust people really easily and that's a good trait I think. Normally I like/trust people until they do something to prove me wrong. I treat people that way because I like to be treated that way. To judge someone by their looks or what others have said about them is shallow and stupid in my opinion! I don't see the point! Everyone has different likes and dislikes and buttons! That's why were aren't all friends! It makes life interesting! What's the point of judging someone because someone else said they are weird or annoying or whatever! It's not them being friends with them, IT'S YOU! But my class is about to end so I have to get off! Ta Ta For Now!!!

ASHLEY UTZ signing off :)

Life As A Teenager 2010 Version

Hey There Everyone,
      As you should all know by now I am a teenager in the year 2010. I am going to celebrate my 17th birthday tomorrow. I am excited for it, although I don't want to grow up. I like being a teenager. We have it so easy! It's a shame that most kids my age just want to get out of school, get a job and grow up. I do not know if they choose not to think about the bills, the stress of making enough money to eat, the stress of a job, what about bad employers?? There are so many things that we don't see and realize about being "all grown up". Taxes, rent, mortgage, food, gas, electricity bills, heating bills, car payments, loans, mutual funds, etc. There are so many hidden disadvantages to being an adult. I am glad that I am a teenager, yet I am excited to see what I will become. I know that once I get "old" I will look back on my teenage rebellious days and think 'hmm if only I could go back to then'. I hate to keep this so short but the bell is about to ring so I have to turn off the computer.

ASHLEY

My 17th Birthday Party :)

Hello Dear Readers,
      This weekend was my 17th birthday party, as my birthday will be on Wednesday! :) I am quite excited for it, as it will also be the first day for Badminton this year! :) I love Badminton!!!! I miss it!! and I am so pumped to play it again!!! I really hope we have a good team :) and actually get to go somewhere this year!!! Back to my birthday party. It was yesterday and we started off at the pool and swam for an hour, then  because someone coughmegancough left a very important peice of clothing at her house we walked there. Once we arrived back at the pool we ate pizza and my amazing mother came and dropped off some ice cream cake! :) It was so so amazingly good! although it was freezing outside! :( haha But I better log off for tonight... TTYL

Face The Facts

Hey, so here I am just sitting in Investment and Money Management and the person sitting next to me, my friend from the old days at Clearview, is trying to figure out what the address to this blog is. He started his own just so he could see mine, although he failed majorly! haha I, in the end, told him what it was and the first thing he did was make fun of the name. Gotta love a friend like that eh?? So recently I have had some trouble with a person that I know. I had an argument with him the other night and now it is weird and awkward to be around him. I cannot just avoid him like I would normally do because we ride the bus together. I think it is pretty much in the past right now but I am still not sure if he will say something again or not. I really hope he doesn't but he is a little on the immature side. Through out the argument he did have his valid points so the next day I took responsibility for my actions and I said sorry to the person I had hurt. That person said that they weren't mad and that it was all good. I hate to admit that I am wrong but I had to. I think only truly great people can admit when they are wrong and take responsibility for their wrongful actions towards others or even their selves. It is a very hard thing to do but I find it needs to be done. If you can't accept that you are wrong then you think that you are always right and that's a lie. Everyone has their wrong moments. It's not a bad thing. It is apart of life. But I should actually go and do some school work now. Talk to you later

PS Rebecca wanted to be added to this so here it is. :) 

First Post :)

Hello Out There!
     I am sure I that no one will probably ever read this blog, but it is a way from me to get out my issues without having to actually talk to anyone :) Plus I can write down all my thoughts about life without getting laughed at :) always a plus :) haha So I am a "normal" teenage girl in Grade 12. I put normal in quotation marks because in my opinion there is no such thing as a normal person. Normal is different to every single person. Some people think that normal is wearing black all the time, some think that normal is always wearing skirts, some believe that normal is being preppy. There is no such thing as normal. People laugh at other people because they aren't "normal". It isn't because they aren't normal it's because they aren't the same as the majority of people. They may dress differently or talk a little uniquely and they get subjected to hours and hours of teasing, and bugging. I don't see the point! No one is like anyone else. We are all different and I am actually very happy that we are all different. If we weren't, life would be boring. We would talk about the same things everyday. There would be no arguments because everyone would have the same opinion as everyone else. It would be stupid! So, I am very glad everyone is different. Plus I think personally having a disagreement every now and then is a good thing. Not everyone thinks the same and it is nice to see how other people think. It may make you see the world in a different way, if you are open minded that is. :) I love getting peoples opinions to see how they differ from mine, and to see what I hadn't thought of. I don't think of it in the way that says that I am stupid because I didn't think of it. I think of it like they have had different experiences in their life then I have so they will have a different outlook on life itself. No two people grow up in the exact same way. Every parent teaches their children different things and they also say different things. They also may have said the same thing but the child could have took it a different way. I like meeting new people and different types of people because it keeps me on my toes. It makes my life interesting!!!

I think that is enough for today :) I still have a few math questions to go over! I want to get an A and as of right now I am rocking out at a C (66%) :( I haven't been that low in a long time! Oh well I will do my best to get a better grade! :) Wish me luck!!!