Down, Down and Farther Down

Hi everyone,
    Today has been a continuous flow of badness! With the odd happy moment. The bad started when I realized that I did have to get up and actually go to school today! :( I am so tired and worn out and I just want to sleep for 3 days straight!!!! Then we (my friend and I) were kind of late getting out of the house so that made me a little worried since I had stuff I had to do once we got to school! and then we made it to school with time to spare but then I got called down to go work on the program for this year's school play that needed to be done this morning!!! and then I worked on that for most of first class and then I sat and talked with some awesome stage craft people which was a nice change from the way my morning had been going :) and then came PE. We started off with handball with only two teams which sucks! Four corner is way better! and my team was really not that good!!! so that was bad then we switched to soccer which blew more!!! During the switch I was waiting to get a drink when I saw this dodgeball that was covered in writing to Kyle. He passed away recently and was loved by so so many!!! Everyone signed it and said things to him. Reading it was not a smart idea the way my day was going! I got really sad and in the end ended up crying! Talia and Emily came and talked to me and made me laugh a bit! Then came along math! Since I am in theater and I am eating, sleeping, breathing it I did not have time to study for my math test that just happened to be today!!! So there were about 7 questions that I did not even have any clue how to do!!! 3 of the 7 were important worth more then the rest questions!! I will be surprised if I did not fail it!!  I was tired, and upset and I had not studied so that will be a terrible test!!! Oh I forgot to add that when I was upset in PE I had texted this guy who said he would be there for me whenever I needed him that I needed a hug and how much I missed our friend! and I didn't get a reply for some time.. When he finally replied all it said was "sorry I didn't get your text until now. How are you?" and when I said I am dealing meaning to me not well I did not get a text back! I eventually just said never mind just forget that I texted you. The reason why this made me so upset was because he had said he would be there if I ever needed him and when I did need him he wasn't there! All I asked for was a simple hug! It was not like I asked him to go around the world for me! It was a hug! Lunch time was bad because I was sad and my friend was in a really good mood so we kind of clashed! I didn't want to be happy and so I wasn't! I am better now but I am still a bit sad when I think about that text conversation or lack there of! Another friend of mine really helped me out! :) I can always count on him and really don't know what I would do if he wasn't there anymore!!!! He is so nice and always there and just funny and makes me smile :) I am excited to move away to college!!!!! That way I can know who my true friends are!!!! I know that he will be one of them! :) But class is really coming to an end so I should go! :( I will talk to you later! I have to update you all on my theater experience!!! lol

ASHLEY