I have figured out that as slow as it feels to grow up we do truly grow up fast. Here I am going to be graduating in June, accepted to College, moving out in September, and yeah. Everything is happening so fast and it scares the crap out of me! I want to still be a little kid playing in the sand box and color with crayons!!! The biggest issue then was the fact that I had to share my crayons! Why can't the rest of life be that simple?? They say ignorance is bliss and I am starting to believe them! If we didn't have to pay attention to everything bad around us our lives would be so joyful and happy all the time. I am not saying that I think life sucks or anything like that! :) I love life even with its bad moments....I guess without down moments the ups wouldn't seem as good. Without downs would we be truly happy?? Hmmmm...thought provoking....Anyways... I am moving into town to my friends place for a little over two weeks! I am pumped but yet it is going to be weird because one I am not going to be going home at all and two I have never lived in town so that will be weird too. I am sure we are going to have some fun but I think we will be too busy to have like an extreme amount of fun lol Which is kind of sad but I am also looking forward to moving into the theater and getting everything going with the show :) I cannot believe that the first show is about 8 days till we start performances!! Yikes!!! haha I am excited and very nervous!!! I don't really know what I am expected to do as stage manager to tell you the truth lol I think I am supposed to know when people come on and where they come on from and like the lighting and sound and yeah I am so going to wreck this show!! :( haha oh well at least I will learn some new things :) Which is awesome cause I like to expand my horizons!! :) Makes me feel good about myself :) lol Tomorrow I am going to be painting so much! lol I think I will even do it TSP and during my lunch! :( which will suck but we need to get it done so we can start on the next house and get the trees done by Saturday!!! I am so nervous!!!!!!!!! ahhhhhhh lol what happens if we don't get it done or I wreck it or something stupid happens and I ruin the whole show!!! :( ahhhhhhhhhh I am freaking out a little right now! So much is going on right now it is over whelming....I hate this lol but love it at the same time! Being busy makes me feel good and useful :) I hate just sitting around doing nothing lol of course if I was always busy I would't be able to write this blog :( lol so it is sort of a good thing that I have some free time lol sort of....haha But I need to finish packing and I have math homework to do and I have to talk to my mother and yeah lol busy busy :) Night y'all!!!
ASHLEY
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