A changing of times

I have figured out that as slow as it feels to grow up we do truly grow up fast. Here I am going to be graduating in June, accepted to College, moving out in September, and yeah. Everything is happening so fast and it scares the crap out of me! I want to still be a little kid playing in the sand box and color with crayons!!! The biggest issue then was the fact that I had to share my crayons! Why can't the rest of life be that simple?? They say ignorance is bliss and I am starting to believe them! If we didn't have to pay attention to everything bad around us our lives would be so joyful and happy all the time. I am not saying that I think life sucks or anything like that! :) I love life even with its bad moments....I guess without down moments the ups wouldn't seem as good. Without downs would we be truly happy?? Hmmmm...thought provoking....Anyways... I am moving into town to my friends place for a little over two weeks! I am pumped but yet it is going to be weird because one I am not going to be going home at all and two I have never lived in town so that will be weird too. I am sure we are going to have some fun but I think we will be too busy to have like an extreme amount of fun lol Which is kind of sad but I am also looking forward to moving into the theater and getting everything going with the show :) I cannot believe that the first show is about 8 days till we start performances!! Yikes!!! haha I am excited and very nervous!!! I don't really know what I am expected to do as stage manager to tell you the truth lol I think I am supposed to know when people come on and where they come on from and like the lighting and sound and yeah I am so going to wreck this show!! :( haha oh well at least I will learn some new things :) Which is awesome cause I like to expand my horizons!! :) Makes me feel good about myself :) lol Tomorrow I am going to be painting so much! lol I think I will even do it TSP and during my lunch! :( which will suck but we need to get it done so we can start on the next house and get the trees done by Saturday!!! I am so nervous!!!!!!!!! ahhhhhhh lol what happens if we don't get it done or I wreck it or something stupid happens and I ruin the whole show!!! :( ahhhhhhhhhh I am freaking out a little right now! So much is going on right now it is over whelming....I hate this lol but love it at the same time! Being busy makes me feel good and useful :) I hate just sitting around doing nothing lol of course if I was always busy I would't be able to write this blog :( lol so it is sort of a good thing that I have some free time lol sort of....haha But I need to finish packing and I have math homework to do and I have to talk to my mother and yeah lol busy busy :) Night y'all!!!

ASHLEY

Life Is Short!!! :(

        Today was not a very good day at all. At the beginning of the day I had a brother that wasn't actually my brother just a friend that I have grown up with and now I don't. He got into a crash this morning and later passed away. I already miss him dearly!!!! I wish I could go back in time and change it! He was such an amazing young man! I can't believe I wasted all that time! He was so young!!! Only 17....supposed to graduate this year! He will be missed strongly and by many!!! Bad things happen to amazing people! :( There are so many things I wish I could change...I wish I hung out with him more...I wish I had taken the time to talk to him...I wish I hadn't been so rude to him at times...I wish...But wishing won't bring him back it will only make me unhappy....He wouldn't want us to be unhappy he would want us to party hard and enjoy life! He always had a joke or some funny comment to say :) This incident reminds me of the people I have lost in my life....I miss you Grandma, I miss you Auntie, I miss you Kyle, I miss you Mrs.G, I miss you Doris, I miss you Nana, I miss you Papa, too many people for having only been around for 17 years! I think that people should stop dieing around me!!!! R.I.P <3 I will never forget any of you for as long as I live!!!! You all made a difference in my life and will be forever missed!!!!! :( <3 <3 I still feel like today is a nightmare and I am going to wake up and you are going to be alive and everything will be okay...but I know it won't! Life isn't that nice...it has its downs and they suck but we have to keep looking forward....we have to stay strong! As much as it hurts we have to move on....

Oh My haha

That is what I have been saying all day!!! lol I woke up mad at school but then I cheered up a little! :) then I got tired again :( which was really lame cause we danced in Stage Craft today and that would have been a blast had I been in  good mood :) and then PE started off really lame! and then got good :) :] which was nice :) my team barely lost this time and I made the teams but they didn't work out the way I wanted them too! :( so that was a disappointment haha oh well turned out not so bad lol hopefully the teams get worked out a little better tomorrow lol I highly doubt it though lol so then Math was kind of boring and then got better when Julia and I started hitting each other and laughing so hard! lol Lunch was good cause I hung out with one of my best friends :) that I hardly hang out with :) and we talked and laughed and went to timmies..then thinking that we were late she ran into her class and realized that her class wasn't even in there yet! It was so funny!!! :) Now Investment and Money Management is boring but I spilled my hot chocolate and typed in the wrong password twice until Kyle told me that I was using the wrong password! lol It has been an interesting day lol lots of ups and downs!!! :) I enjoy it lol keeps me on my toes actually :} its nice lol I get to not ride the bus today after school :) and go to a friends house so that will be a blast and a half :) cause we are so random when we get together :) lol I totally love it!!!! <3 We haven't really gotten the chance to hang out much lately but we are trying!!! :) I have been friends with her for as long as I can remember lol we have had our fights that's for sure but its not the fights that matter it's the time we actually hang out and the wonderful memories we have together :) haha gag corny!!! Lol :) But I better go work :) Talk to you all later :)

ASHLEY

Good Morning!!! :) I think this may be the earliest that I have ever blogged lol but this one will be short because the space bar on this computer kind of sucks and doesn't press down half the time so I can see myself giving up on this whole thing and just studying like I am supposed to! lol So my first Grade 12 math midterm is today :( yikes!!!! I am so not looking forward to it at all!!! :( I really do need a good mark but I just can't seem to make myself study!!! and its not like I am lucky enough to have a spare before my math class!!! :( I am excited for floor hockey though!!!:) I better win today!!! haha although I think I am the one that brings down my team!!! I just enjoy the sport so my teacher thinks I am better then I am! :) It has it's good points and bad points! At least I get to play against him all the time! Which is nice because he is a good player! I like to play against people who are good!!! because that makes me try harder!!! And makes me feel better when I actually get it away from someone that is good lol Math sucks so much!!! :) I think that I really should be studying right now! :( I must say this again! Math sucks!!! So, instead of studying I am hanging out with PK and Lifesaver and Shrimp

Gotta Love Being A Teenager!

Hey all my awesome readers and anyone who randomly came upon this blog :) I am enjoying life at the moment :) I just got a random call from a few friends of mine while in class :) Since I am done all my work I decided to take it. It was very funny and made me laugh! :) Gotta love friends :) lol Yes, I know that I shouldn't have taken a phone call while in class but the teacher was not in the room nor was he going to tell us anything important for the rest of class. As I said before I was done all my work so I didn't see the harm in it! lol :) Everyone now and then you got to live on the edge and break a few rules or at least bend the rules a bit! Or life may become boring, like a trap and just plain old not any fun!!!! Another thing that has gotten me happy is that I got a new book!!! :) It is the third one in a series!!! and the other two were really good!!! I would suggest you all to read The hunger Games, Catching Fire and Mockingjay!!!! the first two are so so good!!!! I am going to read all the way home today haha :) Yay!!! :) :) A thing that is not so happy and good in my life right now is my Midterm for Math is tomorrow :( so instead of reading my book when I get home I am going have to study and study and guess what?!?!?! study some more! :( That is going to be lame but it will be worth it if I can get a really good mark :) I am hoping for at least a B!!! :) So that I can boost my mark up to at least a B!!! :) :) :) :] :] :] Because if I don't then I don't get money from the school at the end of the year! :( which would be so lame!!! especially with college just around the corner!! :( I am excited but yet kind of scared to face college!!! Especially since the one I am looking at is about 8 hours away I think! :( oh well it should be a blast!!! :)

Right at this moment I am kind of bored....after the phone call excitement this class is almost unbearable!!! I need to go hang out with friends or something :) lol Maybe I won't read on this bus after all haha but class is ending so talk to you later

ASHLEY