Change

Hi, so recently I have noticed that I have sort of changed. I can't really place my finger on how I have changed or when it happened but I know that I am a bit different now then I was last school year. A lot went down this summer that had a long lasting effect on me. This includes me breaking up with my boyfriend that I had for a year and three weeks, some friendships were lost, some were created, I re-realized that life is super short, my brother hit a moose which may not seem like such a life altering thing for me but it was, and just a lot of new things occurred to me over the summer. The other day I asked one of my amazing best friends if she had noticed a change in me. She took her time answering and told me that not really. Although, as always with her, she had a big long winded explanation behind it. She pointed out some good facts and made things clearer for me. I may have changed a tiny bit but that's because where I noticed the change I was getting more comfortable. I had accepted the way things were and I adapted to fit in. I had found that I had become okay with myself in that situation unlike I had before. May I add that this slight change took years! I never thought that I didn't enjoy that situation just because I wasn't warmed up to the people in it. I had felt like an outcast and now I somewhat, I wouldn't say completely, fit in. Last night showed me that I make my own destiny. I am who I am and anyone that has an issue with that can either tell me or just leave. Not everyone is going to get along and be all "let's hold hands and sing". We all need a little bit of uncomfortable to show us that we will be alright.

I am happy to be able to say that although that situation used to have me freaked out to the nines and yet so excited now it pretty much just makes me excited! :) I still do get the odd 'should I be here' and 'what am I doing here' thoughts but they get over run by 'oh my gosh! this is awesome' and 'I need to do this more often' and don't forget 'I am so happy that I stuck it out and kept coming!' I find that yes maybe things are hard in the beginning but as time goes by and you get more comfortable you can find that you may just surprise yourself. Things may just become easier and more fun and enjoyable. Another one of my awesome friends told me one time "It takes 20 days (or attempts) to make it stick." I believe that she is very right. You can't expect yourself to get everything on the first try. If you expect that then you should prepare yourself to be disappointed every once in a while. Well I better go study for math.

                                                      HAPPY HALLOWEEN EVERYONE!!!

ASHLEY

The Supposedly 'Nice' Fluffy White Snow Has Arrived :(

One of the worst parts of living where I do is the winters! We get really long and rather chilly winters! :( That's all good if you love snowboarding or skiing or snow blading but still like come on!!! Summer should be WAY longer than winter is!!!! I came up with a brilliant idea today! The snow can stay on the ski hills but be gone everywhere else! :) See I told you it was a brilliant idea! haha if only it were that simple! Oh well....I must say I do not hate winter or snow I just prefer more summer! I love to snow blade! and hockey is awesome too! but would I rather be swimming in a lake on a nice hot day or freezing my but off outside in the snow?? Defiantly the swimming in a lake one!! :) As much as I dislike the snow I decided to take some pictures of it today! haha funny eh?? Well here they are! You are the first ones other then myself to see them :) Although, I always show my pictures so this is really not a big deal! haha

Something that warms even the coldest places :)

Fire is what warms even the coldest places :) Oh and smiles :) haha I am very easily entertained by fire... I don't really know why. I only know that I am not the only one who likes to play with fire :) Fireworks are also "the bomb" haha

Watching fireworks is always a fun evening plan :) For me fireworks represent celebration. The only time we usually buy fireworks is when we are celebrating something! :)

The Mountains Comes Home :]

Hello Dear Readers :)
   How are you today?? Good?? I sure hope so :) I am really good in case you were wondering, and if you weren't well I told you anyways lol So yesterday Butterfly and his girlfriend made it back to our place. If you don't know, which most of you won't, Butterfly is a guy that works up in the mountains and that is just his nickname. I don't want to use his real name because I just don't feel like it right now. They ended up staying the night! Dung Beetle, also not a real name, owns the mountain's well has claim to some of the land in the mountains. He made it back today. He had to figure out where to put the horses and get everything settled with them before he made it up here. He arrived at lunch time today which kind of excited me! I like Dung Beetle! haha Which sounds so messed up but it's true Haha. You see Dung Beetle is really nice and thoughtful and very fun to make fun of :) haha I quite enjoy it actually, the making fun of him part lol :) They are all having a good time talking and watching hockey :) :) And I am just sitting here watching it all unfold haha :) :] :} But I better go and get off my computer and actualy socialize haha :) Bies

ASHLEY

Sleep is IMPORTANT!

Hello my awesome readers and people that just happen to stumble upon my blog!
        Last night well early this morning, 4:30 am, I decided to get only one hour of sleep. This was not the smartest thing I have done! Sleep is really important! Without it I just crumble! Today has been full of ups and downs. One minute I will be hyper and over tired the next I am ready to just pass out asleep! I still have badminton to endure! Although, I do believe that, that will be more fun then it will be anything else! I missed last week so I am very excited to get playing again!! :) As I mentioned in my last entry, at least I think it was my last entry, I had gotten the chance to talk to my teacher. She is now checking my homework and assigning certain things each night for me. So far this has actually helped a little! I do what she tells me to and that's about it, but I learn what I need to without over doing it! I like the set up we have! :) I am excited now! haha My mood keeps changing today! it is so weird! and really funny!!! :) Class has about 20 minutes left :) So pumped up for after school :) Get to go to Meg's house and then play badminton!!! :) Woot WOOOOOOO I might even get Chinese food :) Yay me!!! :) I have started to read a book called "The Hunger Games". Everyone that has read it has said that it is good! It has romance and blood and gore :) The best kind of book :) I think I may read it right now :) haha I am excited! Yes, I know I am a nerd haha well I would prefer book nerd actually haha :) But I am going to go read now :) Bies!

ASHLEY

No worries :)

So, I don't have much to say at the moment. Today has been good and bad. Stage Craft went all right. I talked more to this girl that is in my class then I normally do so that was nice! :) In PE my class played soccer and well to put it nicely a baby could probably play better then I can, I am that bad. Seriously, I am that bad at soccer! I didn't score at all :( so stupid! haha and then I had math which really didn't go all that well either cause well it is math we are talking about here! :( Oh well, I did talk to my teacher and she said that she would check my homework everyday so now I have a reason to work on it! and finish it! :) YAY maybe that will help me! During my flex Chad and Megan and I decided to go to her house and grab her overnight stuff cause she is so coming over :) So pumped! :) We have to practice her lines and make posters but other then that it shall be a blast :) oh and we both have homework :( lol oh well we will still have a blast :) We may even take pictures :) fun! :) Right now I am in investment and money management and my teacher is talking away about current assets and current debts! haha talk about boring!!!! I strongly dislike this class! My teacher is really boring and he doesn't know how to teach I swear! But who am I to say anything, I have never tried teaching before. I am sure that I wouldn't be that great either haha I would be too nervous to stand in front of all those teenagers and have them listening to every single word I say! What if I messed up?? or said the wrong thing completely or what if I was having a bad day?? or if they didn't respect me?? That is the problem with my teacher I think. He is kind of a push over that tries at times to be serious and strong which just doesn't work. There are no tests in this class either which isn't a smart thing for a teacher cause then the students don't listen and pay attention enough in class....they can share work and just not pay attention at all when he talks. Just write the notes down or find the answers in the book and there ya go. That's all that's needed! But i better listen because we actually have an assignment to do lol BIES

ASHLEY

PHOTOS!!!!!!

Muahahahahaha I have finally gotten the time, and well finally thought about it when I actually had the chance to do it, to put pictures that I have actually taken onto this awesome blog of mine!! YAY me! haha :) I am excited now!!! :) lol

It took me a while to choose which photo I wanted to put up first. I decided on this one because I think it is somewhat unique! I love to take pictures :) but recently I haven't had the time plus I have hit a wall when it comes to inspiration! :( Oh well, I will enjoy just looking at my pictures and other peoples amazing pictures for a little while :)

My mother's garden is usually the subject of my photos. I love the close up flower pictures, so my computer is filled with those :) But I am kind of tired and I really don't feel like writing or adding more haha so I will talk to you all later :)

Peace out!

ASHLEY

Hey!! :)
   So today I found out that I think/talk about me, myself and I a lot :( This is not a good thing in my books, as it shouldn't be in any ones. I am going to have to work on that one. I will try to keep you updated on my progress, or maybe lack there of lol I am in a good mood though! Which is amazing :) and very nice! I love being in a good mood! :) So much more fun then being angry!!! :) Right now I am watching Kyle playing the hardest game ever haha I think that is even the name of it! It looks so hard!!! I know I couldn't do it!! haha thats why I am just watching haha He almost got the one level but he failed at the very last challenge!  haha :() poor poor kyle haha I am going to add some pictures that I found on Google and thought were cool! They all have the theme of love :) I don't know why I chose that haha An update on the Kyle thing: He has 55 deaths and is on...opps make that 59..... on level 10. That level is so so hard!!!! 64 now haha but I have to go :) Hope you enjoy the pictures!

Likes :)

I love black and white photos! :) They are so simple but they can capture the moment and emotions so well!!! The two photos above were found on Google and were not taken by me. I will need to add some photos of my own soon!

As much as I love black and white photos my eyes always notice the bright and unique ones the most. I love the photo above because of the way the colors go so well together. Plus its a close up photo, one of my favorite techniques. I did not take that picture either. Soon enough I will have some of my own up here! Maybe tonight I will get around to it! If you read this blog you should make a comment or something :) Tell me what you like and what you don't like. :) I got to go though! Bies


ASHLEY

Hey Out There To Any One Who Actually Reads Theses Things,
      Today is not a good day for me.... I don't know why but right at this moment I am not happy at all....kay I know why but I am choosing not to say it where everyone and anyone can read it! I like some things private, weird I know coming from someone that blogs about their life and opinions. Whatever, I am an odd girl! :) I like to think that my friends enjoy that about me. That I keep them on their toes and entertained at least a little bit. I do have my super weird moments when even I feel sorry for the people around me. I like to think that I am mature with a few immature moments instead of the other way around. When people guess my age they say usually 18 or 19 which makes me really happy because I like to be thought of as older. Most of the time I doubt it is because of just my looks. They may help in making me look older at times but I think most of the time it is the way I act and not the way I look. I will admit to my fair share immature moments but I am trying to limit that number as much as I can! People that are always immature really make me mad. That's all I am going to say about that.

Anywho, on to a new topic! Religion. Touchy subject for a lot of people I know, but I think it is a good thing to bring up. I am neither a Christian or a Atheist. I used to be a Christian and I was raised to be a Christian but I have chosen my own path and will stay on it. I have friends that are Christian and I have friends that are Atheist. I don't pick my friends based on what they know or believe. That is not an important thing to me, at least not right now it isn't. The only thing that really bugs me about Christianity is that there are people out there that are preaching at and telling other people that they will go to hell if they don't believe. That is wrong and rude and to my eyes not very Christian like. Jesus ate with the sinners. It is not the saved that need help, it is the sinners that do. Yes, it is good to surround yourself with people that believe the same as you but if you only have people that believe the same as you around you, then you aren't challenging yourself or helping anyone really. What if you could help someone but you don't ever get a chance to try because they aren't Christian?? You would waste a great opportunity and a thing that would be very "Christian". People should be able to believe what they want without getting teased, treated rudely or even ignored in some cases. Everyone thinks differently and that is a good thing, so why are so many people trying to get everyone else to think like them?? To believe in what they do?? To believe how they do?? Everyone is different!!! I cannot stress this enough! I may be young and I haven't seen that much of the world, although I would love to, but it's really not that hard to see how people act. We are all so selfish! So, I need to correct myself, most people are so selfish! Me included! I think about myself first, then others! This is a habit that I want to change! We would all be better off if we thought of others first! Now don't get me wrong, I know there are people out there doing that right now, but we need more to make a bigger difference! I want to say Thank- You to everyone out there trying to make a difference! You rock!!! :) I wish I could be like you! :) well not quite like you but you know what I mean lol :)

I really enjoy writing this blog. It helps me to De-stress and I don't know get my feelings out haha :) But class is coming to an end again..... :)

PS: I learned that to get into some Colleges for the course I want to I have to get at least a C in Math Principals 12 :( So lame!!!! :(

ASHLEY

The Small Things In Life

Hello my dear sweet readers!
    Most of the blogs I have written have been typed in complete boredom! I have this class called Investment and Money Management and it is so boring! I have some work to do but in the last week I have done about two full days of work to about three days of facebooking and blogging... I guess I could do some math, but I need help with a lot of it so it is kind of pointless...plus since my mark is so slow I have enlisted the help of a friend to help boost my mark up! I want to get an A but it is easier said then done! Math Principal 12 is not easy at all! I am glad that I have a friend that has already finished this course and that actually got a really good mark in it or else I don't know what I would do. School has come quite easy to me these last few years, which isn't good because when things get hard I get mad and frustrated and think that I should just get it but I don't. Although when I do finally get it, it feels so good! Anyways, enough about my math troubles. Today has been good :) I read on my first bus, thought on my second and talked to friends on my third! It was a nice combination :) Plus I don't have to ride the bus home because my amazing brother and I are going on a little road trip :) I am pumped!!!!! I would say where we are going but you never know who will read this! haha So I have to keep things kind of secret, although, being secret is one thing I am really bad about when it comes to my own life. I am a open book, which has its pros and cons! That way people get to know me really easily but it also means that people may know more then they should about me... I don't know I like to be an open book cause that means I can trust people really easily and that's a good trait I think. Normally I like/trust people until they do something to prove me wrong. I treat people that way because I like to be treated that way. To judge someone by their looks or what others have said about them is shallow and stupid in my opinion! I don't see the point! Everyone has different likes and dislikes and buttons! That's why were aren't all friends! It makes life interesting! What's the point of judging someone because someone else said they are weird or annoying or whatever! It's not them being friends with them, IT'S YOU! But my class is about to end so I have to get off! Ta Ta For Now!!!

ASHLEY UTZ signing off :)

Life As A Teenager 2010 Version

Hey There Everyone,
      As you should all know by now I am a teenager in the year 2010. I am going to celebrate my 17th birthday tomorrow. I am excited for it, although I don't want to grow up. I like being a teenager. We have it so easy! It's a shame that most kids my age just want to get out of school, get a job and grow up. I do not know if they choose not to think about the bills, the stress of making enough money to eat, the stress of a job, what about bad employers?? There are so many things that we don't see and realize about being "all grown up". Taxes, rent, mortgage, food, gas, electricity bills, heating bills, car payments, loans, mutual funds, etc. There are so many hidden disadvantages to being an adult. I am glad that I am a teenager, yet I am excited to see what I will become. I know that once I get "old" I will look back on my teenage rebellious days and think 'hmm if only I could go back to then'. I hate to keep this so short but the bell is about to ring so I have to turn off the computer.

ASHLEY

My 17th Birthday Party :)

Hello Dear Readers,
      This weekend was my 17th birthday party, as my birthday will be on Wednesday! :) I am quite excited for it, as it will also be the first day for Badminton this year! :) I love Badminton!!!! I miss it!! and I am so pumped to play it again!!! I really hope we have a good team :) and actually get to go somewhere this year!!! Back to my birthday party. It was yesterday and we started off at the pool and swam for an hour, then  because someone coughmegancough left a very important peice of clothing at her house we walked there. Once we arrived back at the pool we ate pizza and my amazing mother came and dropped off some ice cream cake! :) It was so so amazingly good! although it was freezing outside! :( haha But I better log off for tonight... TTYL

Face The Facts

Hey, so here I am just sitting in Investment and Money Management and the person sitting next to me, my friend from the old days at Clearview, is trying to figure out what the address to this blog is. He started his own just so he could see mine, although he failed majorly! haha I, in the end, told him what it was and the first thing he did was make fun of the name. Gotta love a friend like that eh?? So recently I have had some trouble with a person that I know. I had an argument with him the other night and now it is weird and awkward to be around him. I cannot just avoid him like I would normally do because we ride the bus together. I think it is pretty much in the past right now but I am still not sure if he will say something again or not. I really hope he doesn't but he is a little on the immature side. Through out the argument he did have his valid points so the next day I took responsibility for my actions and I said sorry to the person I had hurt. That person said that they weren't mad and that it was all good. I hate to admit that I am wrong but I had to. I think only truly great people can admit when they are wrong and take responsibility for their wrongful actions towards others or even their selves. It is a very hard thing to do but I find it needs to be done. If you can't accept that you are wrong then you think that you are always right and that's a lie. Everyone has their wrong moments. It's not a bad thing. It is apart of life. But I should actually go and do some school work now. Talk to you later

PS Rebecca wanted to be added to this so here it is. :)